And so it starts.

September has slowly become my least favorite month.  Here are a few reasons organized by date:

September 6, 2012: My aunt Estelle's mom passed away
September 11, 2001: We all know why.
September 14, 2010: My mom and I got in the car accident, leaving her with a fractured humerus
Friday, September 16, 2011: We were told her body was tired (we didn't know how long she had)
Sunday, September 18, 2011: Hospice came to the hospital to visit us
Monday, September 19, 2011: We moved into hospice & the last day my mom was fully conscious
Monday, September 26, 2011: My mom passed away

So, let the small venting begin.

Today (Sept 14) , two years ago was honestly a nightmare.  Here was what I wrote that night.  Here was what I wrote last year on that day, the last post before we found out about my mom's health deteriorating.  Finally, here is the post about when we got my (our) newer car, Anderson.

So, like I mentioned in that original post, that day was one of the worst days of my life.  I won't go into too much detail because I wanted to say how blessed I am.  Yes, today wasn't the easiest of days but I am so blessed to be alive.  Two years ago today, my mom and I experienced one of the worst things in our lives and we overcame it.  Today, I spent time with Mickey, went to work and spent time with my family (Aunt Mimi, Uncle Michael and David) and even met a few new people! I mean, seriously, how blessed am I?

Mickey and I are about to celebrate our 6 months this 18th of September and that's a big thing! He has been so supportive and helpful, especially this month and I'm so blessed to have met him back during our first semester in college.  I am even more thankful for him being there when my mom's health got worse.  He let me vent in Anderson and it was so very helpful.  So, Mickey, if you're reading this, because I think you are, I just wanted to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart for being there for me today.  I know that, together, we can get through this month.  <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp"> I'm focusing on positivity and happiness and all the beautiful things life has to offer.  So please send good thoughts my way as I navigate the rest of this month.

Thank you.   

Snuggie-licious

Okay, so first of all, I am loving this weather, it's my favorite time of the year! As I'm writing this I am wearing a Snuggie, no joke, (I got it for Christmas like two years ago from my uncle, haha).  That was probably something totally pointless to write, but haha oh well.  Oooh that reminds me, I've put a picture (left) of a pretty little reminder of fall.  The picture to the right is of, I think, a cocoon, maybe? it's furry, I don't know.  I just thought it had a really pretty color to it, so I took a bazillion pictures of it.  Actually there were two of them.  Okay so here are the new things that have happened:

1) This tuesday was the first time I drove all the way to my school/university.  It was monumental, seriously, since the accident it's been lkadjfoaisher;kwe but my mom and got through it.  Today was better, kind of. Still stressful but ehh, not as bad.

2) I voted! Whoopeee! Yeah, I was pretty excited, I'm such a nerd.  It was really nice to vote with my mom, I had smile on my face like the whole time, it must have been real obvious it was my first time voting. 

3) I am getting my classes and stuff like that figured out for next semester.  It's been really overwhelming but I look forward to next semester.

4) This is my first post of November, woohoo! And most importantly DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME ENDS THIS SUNDAYY!!!!! woohoo!

5) My mom is doing well, we are still a little ehhh but, physically, my mom is doing better with her arm situation.

6) Two days out of this week have been poo.  I don't know, it's just the rollercoaster life I have.  I'm better now. 

7)  Unfortunately one of my aunt's heart's valves is not good.  They will do more tests to see what they can do.  I will keep you updated.  That's pretty much all I know.

I hope to write soon, so these posts aren't soo scattered. 

Thanks for reading!

Please keep praying for my momma and my aunt.

And this is why I hate cars.

Talk about a sucky day. I'll start from the beginning...kind of.
So I just recently got my driver's license because I have been scared of driving for a very long time.  I got my license in less than a month, which was kind of nice but eh.  My mom and I have been alternating when we each get to drive because sometimes I get out of school soooo tired, especially on mondays and wednesdays... :[ My mom, like many others I guess, have this kind of sixth sense that they can feel when there is something wrong.  My mom took over the car twice in like the last two months because she wanted to or because I was tired, anywho both times there was like a huge car accident or something bad ahead. 

Soo (here's where the story begins) today she drove because I was really tired.  We were on our way home in a very quiet street, which we pretty much always take when out of nowhere this big red truck crashed into the "upper left quarter panel" (that's I think what it's called), pretty close to my mom's door.  Everything happened so fast it was like I wasn't living it, but watching somebody else go through this.  The very scary feeling of seeing a giant red truck headed directly to my mom and not being able to do anything is one of the most horrifying feelings I've ever had.  Immediately after it happened I started to ask my mom questions about how she was doing, (we've watching a lot of Grey's Anatomy, which might have helped, but she also used to work in the medical field).  She was very quiet and then said  "I think I may have a broken my arm" this obviously scared me, I had also seen her hit her head, which was also very scary.  This older guy had come to see if we were okay and he helped us a little, thank God for him.  We called 911 and they came VERY FAST which was nice.  I just remember shaking, crying (even though I wanted to be strong) and looking at my mom in pain.  The other lady (probably around her early 20s) was fine, but her truck definitely wasn't.  Anywho, in a matter of seconds I had all these police officers and EMTs asking me questions, it was so scary.  In the meantime, they were trying to see if my mom could move.  I rode in the ambulance with my mom, just wanting her to feel better and not being able to do anything about her horrible pain. 

I called my aunt to tell her about the accident.  We got to the ER and then everything slowed down.  My mom, my aunt and I waited for them to see what they could do about my mom's right arm.  They ended up taking X-rays, which were extremely painful for her, and then they gave her a splint.  They showed us her x-rays and we even got copies. She has a fracture in her upper right arm, in the middle of her elbow and shoulder. 

The entire emergency room experience was too much of a deja vu.  I naturally hate hospitals because of the experiences my mom and I have had there and today was just a repeat.  Even now as I write this I am still shaken.  I know that everything happens for a reason but it is sometimes hard to realize what the reason is. 

The doctor said that he was thinking that her cancer had spread to her right arm, my mom (who used to work in the medical field), my aunt (a nurse) and I (kind of familiar with the medical field) looked at the x-rays and couldn't see the "hot spots" (where the cancer is located).  We'll see what happens. 

As of now, we don't have a car, my mom has a splint, she will have to go to an orthopeadic (sp?) doctor, maybe start radiation again and I am terrified for the future but thankful that this day is over. 

This helps though, thank you for reading.
I will keep you posted. 
Please pray for my mom, thank you.