I have a BA!

The best perk of graduating in the fall at my university: the lights!

{From the night before graduation, Baccalaureate Mass on campus!} 

Mickey and I still can't believe we graduated from college! I mean…COLLEGE! It's a pretty big deal! We graduated in the same place as I graduated from high school! I was very emotional that morning because I was angry at the fact that my mom wasn't there.  Then I stopped and tried to calm down once I saw Mickey and asked for God's guidance.  I knew that my mom wouldn't be there rooting for me in the stands physically but even better, she was there with a great seat rooting for me spiritually.  I felt her presence as I walked in the coliseum and I could hear her voice and I couldn't help but smile and look in awe at the amount of people there.  It was so surreal, the bagpipes were being played, I got goosebumps and got teary-eyed and got chills (and not just because it was one of the colder days here in the south).  We passed by teachers and I saw one of my favorites (whom we had just seen prior to lining up!) I kept thinking "Oh my God, I can't believe this is happening."

I'll rewind a bit.  I woke up feeling weird because I couldn't believe it was my college graduation day.     I felt a bit frustrated with the fact that I was so sad and angry that my mom wouldn't be there but it all slowly started improving when I saw Mickey.  I met him at his house and we finished getting ready and then left for the coliseum! 

We got there and started getting in line and finding our fellow Comm Arts friends and we started taking pictures, laughing, and talking.  Mickey and I went outside for a bit because he was going to leave something in my car when I saw one of our favorite teachers! We screamed, he heard us, we got excited, we took a picture and we all had to leave.  It was so amazing that we got to see him because things had gotten so crazy that it was hard to visit him that last semester! We were literally running and screaming his name then we caught up with him and he turned around, 

it was like something out of the movies.  

Best theater teacher ever! He's told us he has officially adopted us.  We couldn't be happier! ;)

Then Mickey and I went back inside and came to the realization we were going to graduate together.  It was amazing.  We couldn't believe this was all happening.  We then proceeded to take this picture.  

#collegesweethearts

We started lining up and after a while it was our turn to walk into the coliseum! 

(Read top paragraph for details).  

Next thing we know, bam. We're walking the freaking stage.  But, prior to that, after three hours of waiting for our turn, I realized even the few sips of water was too much for my little body to handle and I ran to the restroom a couple minutes before I walked the stage! (Too much info?)

I heard Mickey's name being called first and I screamed for my darling! Then it was my turn and I found some people I had invited there rooting for me and then I stood there waiting for my name to be called.  I looked out onto everybody there and took a deep breath.  This was it.  I was about to graduate from college.  I knew my mom was bawling her eyes out and cheering like nobody's business.  I was stoked.  

"Amy C. …" 

that was all I heard and everything got quiet in my head.

It was like I was dreaming.  I started walking the stage and smiled when I got the president of our university and shook his hand, got my pretend diploma, bam, picture, walked more, shook a strangers hand, bam, picture, walked down a ramp, bam, pose, picture, grabbed an alumni pin from some nice ladies, found somebody I had invited, bam, pose, picture, walked back to my seat and saw Mickey, gave each other a semi-high five and sat down. 

OMG. I just graduated from college with my college sweetheart. 

OMG. I have a B.A. in Communication Arts with a 

Concentration in Production with a Minor in Theatre!

First generation. College Grad. Magna Cum Laude. Ahh!

Everything after that was awesome.  We took pictures and went to Chili's that night.  It was fantastic!

December 8, 2013
:)

I will give you guys more information on other things soon, including my internship, job prospects, goals and of course Christmas and New Years stuff! Get ready! I'm back in the blogging world!

Sayonara College!

So I've got several ideas for different posts but I'll start out with 

this one because this will most likely be the last one of these posts I'll write. Here is what I think about my classes after graduation! (Here is what I thought of my

 last first day of school and here is what I thought about last second day of school.)

Senior Portfolio

Very helpful class! It was nice to make business cards (which I still hand out), a website (which I still brag about) and a 6-month, 5-year plan! It was nice.  

Seminar in Film

This class taught me a lot about film and it's nice to be able to talk to Mickey about film a bit more! Whoohoo! It was also nice to watch all kinds of Spanish films I wouldn't have normally watched!

Creativity for the Arts

This was an interesting class. It taught me to look at the world through a teacher's eyes.  It was the last class I needed to take to complete my theatre minor and it was an education course.  I knew going into it that I would try to learn all the information and retain it for my kids in the future so that I could make all subjects interesting to them (like my mom did for me) and I feel I learned just that.  It's pretty cool! 

Internship

This class was nice.  It was great knowing that I had an internship I really enjoyed

 and was learning a lot out of it.  

US History to 1865

Not going to lie, this was probably one of the least exciting classes I took in college.  It was difficult to get interested in what we were talking about but I did learn, which is all that matters! 

Oh and my time as Entertainment Director for my campus TV station was amazing, stressful, chaotic and bonkers, but amazing nonetheless.  I just can't believe it's over!

This was our last day of classes! 

This was the teacher was the one we had when we met that first day of college in Intro to Mass Comm AND the teacher we had on our last day of college! 

(Oh and that's right outside the classroom where we first met!)

My next post will be about graduation!!!!

Three Years

Three years ago today, I met Mickey. 

1:30pm.

Introduction to Mass Communication class.

It was my first Comm Arts class and I was so excited. 

I remember walking into the classroom and seeing him.

He was one of the first guys in college I saw that had long hair.  

(Shoulder length approx.)

I thought "Wow, this is college"

I don't know why but seeing his hair like that made me think of college movies and it was one of the first times where I thought "I don't know think we're in high school anymore".

It's weird too because I knew a few guys in high school that had long hair but somehow Mickey's looked better.  It looked healthier and didn't make me cringe.  

So here is a nice look at what our profile pictures looked like when we met that day.

Mickey, if you're reading this, I love you! 

Mickey is furthest to the left.

Isn't that crazy? 

We didn't really start talking till later in the semester, and even then, we weren't that close of friends till the following semester. I mean, who would've known that three years ago today, I would meet this amazing man that makes me the happiest girl in the world?

We've been in each other's lives for three years now. Dang.  Three years. 

That's 1095 days.  

Wow.  

Some of my closest friends I have I've known since 6th grade 

and that's still insane to me.  That's at least a decade there!

The concept of time to me is so confusing and just crazy to me, partly because so much has happened and because I'm 21 years old.  I think it comes with the whole growing up thing but wow. You know?

I thank God every day for all the wonderful people I have in my life and I know that three years ago things were way different but if it hadn't been for Mickey and all the other people that helped me through everything, I wouldn't be where I am today. 

I'm so glad I signed up for that class at that time. 

1:30pm. Intro to Mass Comm. August 23, 2010.

Everything changed. 

Our profile pictures now:

Happy three years of knowing each other Mickey. :)

I love you!

Last Second Day of School

I woke up at 10am feeling super rested this morning which was super awesome. :)

I got to campus and headed toward TV Practicum for the first time as the Entertainment Director.  

Ahh! I was so excited.

Hank talked about all things having to do with the station.

I'm excited to talk to the students about all things Entertainment! 

1:30pm: Creativity for the Arts

This was cool!

There are 16 other girls in my class. 

It felt like slumber party minus the whole school thing. Haha.

It's my first class to be taught by a sister. 

It was AMAZING.  We started the class by praying.  

It was beautiful. 

She's actually part of the order of sisters that started and created the chapel.  :)

This girl sitting next to me is having a surgery I had a while ago and I talked 

with her a bit after class.  It was really nice to be able to share my experience about that. 

#schedulethusfar

3pm: Internship 

Oh my goodness. Too many people!

I'm interested to see how it goes.

:)

4:30pm: US History to 1865

He started class early! 

A lot of students.

I'm hoping to learn about history. 

Mickey and I went to a screening afterwards. 

SCARY MOVIE. 

I'm excited for this semester. 

109 days till graduation!

:)

The Beginning of the End.

Hello guys!

Since the last time I blogged here are a few things that have happened:

I've sold several wedding dresses

I've sold several bridesmaids dresses

I've gotten a haircut

I made Dean's list again! [for the 6th semester in a row]

Mickey and I started OFF BROADWAY

I've seen how to replace a flat tire, my flat tire

I've helped Mickey pack up for college for our last semester

I've helped pick out my cousin's bridal gown [at David's Bridal!]

I've continued interning at the station and rode a go-kart [and got whiplash]

I've had a meeting with my college tv station's other officers and we're ready for this semester!

I've been extremely busy but have had some fun

On with the new stuff.

Mickey and I will be starting our final semester of college TOMORROW.

It has hit me several times over the past week which causes me to randomly start crying. 

 Being a girl can be so emotionally tiring sometimes!

I was helping him pack up his stuff FOR THE LAST TIME!!!

His dorm is in this new building and it's brand spankin' new.  It's awesome. 

I remember starting college.  I remember feeling weird because I didn't have class till 10:30! Was that okay? I always felt like I was skipping class because I wasn't on campus at 9am. 

I had breaks between classes and it was so weird to me! 

HERE is my first blog post.

& HERE is my second blog post where I mention a couple college things.

I started this blog to document me starting college and my mom's disease.

It was started almost three years ago! THREE!

It has slowly turned into a blog about all things college and life and love and learning to be an adult. 

August 23 was my first day of college & also when I met Mickey. :)

August 25 was my first blog post.

Here I am, three years later about to finish my college career. 

It's such a big deal guys!

I'm gonna graduate from college with a Bachelor of Arts in Communications. 

[with a concentration in Production and a minor in Theatre]

I will be a first generation college graduate. 

I AM GOING TO GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE IN 111 DAYS!

I mean. My goodness.  I just can't believe it. 

And I get to do it all with Mickey, my amazing boyfriend. Pretty much the first person I saw when I walked in to Intro to Mass Comm at 1:30pm on August 23. 

It was my first Comm class so I was super excited!

I know that throughout this semester I will randomly burst in tears but I'm so excited for the future.  

I started college with my mom and although I'm not finishing 

my last semester with her here, I know she'd be super duper proud of me. 

 I have Mickey by my side as we finish out college strong and I'm so eager to see what happens!

Our last picture on campus before our last semester of college. 

Pre-haircuts. 

So, wish us luck as we start the beginning of the end.  

AAAHH! I'M SO EXCITED!

Next up: Last first day of school! 

Sayonara Sixth Semester

I know it has taken me a long time to talk about this but I'm trying to get back into the writing flow. 

So, here it goes guys, a review of the classes and the semester. 

Advanced Acting

It was a very fun class. 

I love the teacher, it's so sad because I won't have a class with him anymore. 

I learned a lot about different styles of acting. It was awesome.  

It was a hard class and getting an A- was pretty cool. 

Writing the Script

It was also a very fun class.

I learned a lot about scripts and movies. 

We watched so many movies that now, I feel I could talk to

 Mickey more about movies (he's the movie guru)

I will be taking a class from this teacher again.  She's really sweet and she loves 

Mickey and I being together. :)

Play Analysis

This was an okay class.

It was fun reading different plays but I didn't like taking quizzes from them every class. 

It made me stressed and kinda sucked the fun out of reading them. 

I am glad it's over. 

TV Practicum

This is perhaps the class I learned most from.

We did lots of broadcasts and stories and I learned a lot. 

I shot, I edited, I wrote, I anchored, I reporter, I interviewed. 

It was amazing. 

It was interesting because at the start of the semester I had it in my mind that I was going to be a television producer. I've thought that for about 4 years and that all changed this semester. 

I found myself more interested in being in front of the camera and interviewing people in front of the camera.  I would get so excited and it would become the highlight of my day.  The best day was when I filled in for a girl that wasn't feeling well, it was seriously, the most fun I've had in a while. It was our first live broadcast EVER in the history of our TV station and I had a rush. 

It was eye-opening.  

So, I've decided to go for it. 

I'm interning right now at a local television station and I'm learning all the inside scoop. 

It's awesome!

My dream is to work on a daytime show, like a cousin of Ellen or Oprah.  

I think going into Late Night would be amazing as well. 

I want to start with morning shows.  

So we'll see. :)

Anyway, this class was definitely life-changing. 

Law and the Media

It was difficult.

Teacher was nice. 

Glad it's over. 

Producing and Directing

Teacher was very scattered.  

Class was okay. 

I did a short film, it's fantastic!

Glad the class is over. 

So there you have it. 

My sixth semester. 

Next up:

Final semester of college which starts in 81 days

Then college graduation in approx. 191 days. 

I'll be taking:

Senior Portfolio

Seminar in Film: Spanish Language Films

Creativity in the Arts

Internship (I'm hoping to get another internship in the fall with the same TV station)

The United States to 1865

AND I'll be the Entertainment Director for our college TV station!!! 

I'm über excited!

My Sweet Valentine

So Mickey and I celebrated our first Valentine's Day together! 

I woke up so giddy and excited that day! It was amazing!

He surprised me with:

-a balloon that read "I love you"

-a stuffed animal (dog) with a heart

-Sour Patch Extreme

-a dozen red roses *sigh*

-a sweet poem

 (he's got a way with words, it's one of his best qualities)

-And we got each other Mickey and Minnie.

I gave him these Datevitation things I had seen a while ago and then again on Marsa's blog.

I wrote him a whole letter and learned a few things.

It was amazing to see his face as he read my girly letter. 

;)

Fabric of skirt and all other goodies. :)

So, we had Play Analysis at 9am and then tacos for late breakfast then TV Practicum.  

I straightened my hair so that after our 6pm class we could go to Red Lobster (that was the plan).  

May I say that our excitement for the cheesy biscuits was a little abnormal..? Yeah.

Long story short. 

Our 6-8:45pm class (Producing/Directing Seminar) ran wayyy to long.

(She had even said we wouldn't stay long the class before).

Boo.  

We weren't happy campers. 

Plans changed.

I still changed clothing. 

(I wore this cute skirt, black heels, and black top/cardigan and pearls).

*no picture of outfit

**note to self: get a picture of what you're wearing when your boyfriend's jaw drops. :)

Mickey liked it!

We then headed over to Applebee's because it was too late but we had a blast!

We got seated right away (in this section close to the bar that we've always wanted to get seated in), we got food right away, we pigged out, we laughed and had dessert.

And I fell even more in love with him. 

I know I'm missing out a lot of stuff but I wanted to recap our beautiful first Valentine's together. 

Next up! Our 1 year anniversary is next month!! Whaaaa? 

I'm so excited! I already know what I'm gonna wear and what I'm gonna get him. :)

February 14, 2013

Hope y'all had a wonderful Valentines day! 

Advanced Acting & Writing the Script

So, I wanted to update y'all on the first day of the new semester after that very vague post yesterday. Haha :)

7:15am.

Got up and showered and got ready for school.

I was SO not awake. 

 I'm not a morning person and neither is Mickey 

and we somehow ended up with 9am classes Monday-Thursday. Yikes. 

9am. 

Advanced Acting class!

Loved it! I'm so excited!

Mickey and I love this teacher, we've both had him before so we were excited to have a class with him.

I'm so excited to show my monologues (which he said we'll do Wednesday) 

YEPEE! 

We got scenes!! :)

Let's just say, this is a wonderful way to start Monday mornings.  

It's gonna be a hard but super fun class. I'm pumped!

10:15am. 

Mickey and I were done with our first class! 

We ate and took a nap until our next one. 

We got to visit our fellow Comm Arts people and it was so nice to be back home with these kids. 

 I'm sure gonna miss them when we graduate. 

3pm.

Writing the Script class!

Loved it! I'm so excited!

We've also both had this teacher before but we haven't had her 

together for the same class in a long time and we love her too!

She described what we'll be doing in that class and I just got so excited!! 

That class is gonna be amazing, I can't wait.

4:30ish pm. 

Mickey and I went to ihop to celebrate our first day.

  I was tired and a bit nervous about a new semester

 starting but he always has a way of 

cheering me up and making me happy.

 I mean, just look at that smile!

 He's freaking amazing. 

{Isn't it funny how ihop and iPhone both have the "i" thing going on? 

Random thing I noticed, haha.} 

We spent the rest of the day playing on his iPad and reading a play for our class. 

We have so much fun doing homework together.  We're such cool kids.  

Tomorrow:

Play Analysis

TV Practicum

Law and the Media {cue scary music...dun dun dun!}

I will keep y'all posted! I'm glad I got to relieve some stress by writing.  I woke up this morning thinking about how I was starting yet another semester without my momma and I got sad.  I know she's watching me from heaven cheering me on as I start my last spring semester of my undergrad career.  And I know just how proud she'll be once I graduate as the first college graduate in my family. 

 Thank you for guiding me in the right direction and for raising me to be such a strong girl. 

 I love you mommy. ♥

Hope y'all had a great first day back as well! 

Only.ONE.More.Year.

My beautiful campus! 

Guys, I'm gonna graduate from college in year.  Hold the phone. I know. A year! That's like, nothing! I'm so excited.  I want to find a good job that I can start out with and begin getting paid for what I like to do! Aaah! Anyway, back to the present, I will recap my classes and how I did. I AM SO GLAD TO BE DONE WITH FINALS AND MY 6TH SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!! :D

THIS is what I thought about these classes at the beginning of the semester.

Aesthetics of Vision and Sound
-It was a fun class!
-We watched two foreign films and Pride and Prejudice near the end of the semester which I LOVED!
-I learned a tremendous amount of stuff in that class! Simply amazing!
-I'll be taking a class from this teacher again next semester, it's called Writing the Script! Holy cow! I know. I'm pumped!

Speech
-Honestly? A weird class, so I'm glad it's over.
-I met cool people and got to give fun speeches, so I did learn but...still. :)

Intermediate Acting
-Amazing class.
-Tougher than I thought, different teaching methods.
-Hard grader :(
-Impersonation assignment=brilliant.
-Final scene was stressful.  I'm such an overthinker.

I love my school. #nerdalert

{I already got assignments for Advanced Acting next semester! Heck yes! :) This class will be taught with my Acting in Everyday Life and Beginning Acting teacher.  Yepee!}

Theories of Communication
-Easy!
-Learned some stuff! :)

Social Media
-Learned A LOT!
-Fun class and classmates! :)

So that's my review of the classes! Hope y'all enjoyed!
I will be blogging shortly about a 48-Hour Film Experience I participated in!


P.S. I'm making changes to my blog so stay tuned! :)



On a serious note, I also wanted to send thoughts and prayers out to the victims of the horrible shooting in Newtown, CT.  It's absolutely heartbreaking and I just pray to God that everything gets better and that he comforts those in mourning.

Volare. I believe I can fly.

     It is with a heavy heart that I tell y'all these news.  I will not be studying abroad in Rome during Spring 2013.  After much consideration and crying, it is a better option to not go.  As y'all remember from my first post about studying abroad, I was pumped about it.  This was way back in December 2011.  My Italian teacher suggested I go during the spring because the weather is nicer, so I began looking into it after being apprehensive about it.
     I told my friends about it and Mickey became interested in the idea as well.  I took on a second job at Cracker Barrel to save money and to still be able to pay the bills.  At the beginning of this semester, Mickey and I went and visited Alanna and we continued the process of applying to study abroad.  Everything was fine but slowly we started realizing that, financially, this would be something very difficult.  I had money saved up to pay bills while away but my concern was about my return to the U.S. and internships and everything.  Paying for the plane ticket and passports and additional expenses were also of concern.
    After obstacle after obstacle, Mickey and I still kept persevering through and tried to figure out ways to work with them (obstacles) but then the biggest one came.  If we stayed here in the U.S. we could graduate in December 2013.  If we would go, we wouldn't graduate 'til at least Spring 2014, if not later, as some classes aren't offered every semester.  My biggest worry is that I need to graduate and get a job soon so I can start living independently. I'll be turning 21 in 175 days and as I get older I want to make sure I can get in the business and work my way up ASAP.  I will start almost anywhere. I just want to get there and do it.

     I would have loved to study abroad in Rome and learn the Italian language more but I feel that it's not God's plan for us now.  Ironically, today I found out I received the Gilman Scholarship, it's a study abroad scholarship Mickey and I had applied for a while back.  I'm not gonna lie, declining that scholarship was one of the harder things I've had to do in college. We were both extremely sad to not be able to do this but realize that everything happens for a reason, so here are the opportunities available for us here!

1. Mickey is Vice-President of To Write Love on Her Arms at our university! Congrats babe!
2. I can audition for The Memory of Water and even if I don't get in, I'll have added experience.
3. I can cut down on the amount of time I work at Cracker Barrel. (I'll tell y'all more about that another time).
4. I can volunteer here and put in my application for graduation in January.

I must have God's side hurting from all the laughing.  Haha.  

5. We can possibly continue Off Broadway!
6. I can not be as restricted financially!
7. We get amazing classes here!
8. We can graduate in December 2013 (God willing).
9. We won't miss all those spring holidays with loved ones.
10. I can continue participating in events with Catholic Daughters, TWLOHA and maybe if our Associated for Women in Communications organization grows on campus, I can be an officer!

Yes.  I'm very sad that this didn't work out but I know that God and my mom have bigger plans for me.  This just wasn't meant to be, not now.  So, wish us luck as we finish this semester strong!

Corn on the Cob and a Dollar Bill

Okay so this week has been super crazy.  Wednesday was my mom's first chemo for the third time, if that makes sense.  This time it was in a different office because their clientele is expanding, which really only means that more people are being diagnosed with cancer, or at least that's how I think of it.  Anyway, they require a bigger office now so we went to their new office on wednesday, and boy, was it big!!! It was really nice though, their chemo room is like close to 7 times as big as their old chemo room used to be and they have very modern decorations, it's nice.  Well unfortunately I had to go to school that day but I was going to pick my mom up between my breaks, which on wednesdays is like a three hour long break so it was perfect.  When I picked her up she was doing pretty well, it was amazing.  The day before was a nightmare, she was shaking and under extreme stress, I was very happy to see my mom doing so much better.  As much as I hate chemo and the horrible effects it sometimes has on her, it gives me hope that this chemo is working and controlling the cancer.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention in my couple of last posts that last week my veneer fell off :( Okay so yeah, I had a veneer on my top left lateral incisor (I'm pretty sure that's what it's called) and I could only chew mainly on the right side of my mouth because the veneer is pretty fragile so yeah anyway it fell off while I was eating a salad! Isn't that crazy? It was a pretty good salad though, it was a caesar salad :) Anyway so my mom and I had been trying to find a dentist that could fix it, but it was taking a while.  By the way, I also have a fake tooth, yeah, it's crazy, it's on my retainer, anyway, I haven't been able to eat corn on the cob since I got my veneer put on like three years ago, so I was like "Mom! Let's buy some corn on the cob so I can eat it!" yeah, pretty dorky of me, but yeah, I ate like three of those in a course of two days. haha.  Well, long story short, I can't get the veneer put back on, or at all really because the better option for my situation is a crown, which nobody ever told me, but whatever, so that is being put on hold for now, just like my implant (tooth) so I can pretty much eat corn on the cob whenever I want and also pickles (another food I couldn't eat because of my veneer)!!!! :) Well, I could eat pickles but not without cutting it up, old lady style, so I'm excited to eat pickles without having to cut them up. Haha.

Wow, this is a long post, sorry y'all, I've just got soo much to say! I'm almost done.  Oh yeah, I found this one dollar bill in my wallet and I was about to use to buy a coke when I noticed what it said, so I kept it :) Also, in Chorale, we have this really amazing piece it's African-inspired, totally amazing! Chorale is super fun. Oh and Acting is seriously like one of my highlights of the week, it's really nice, everybody is so nice, and I get to pretend to be an athletic boy next class! Like that's so much fun! I probably sound like a total dork, but what else is new? Haha. Oh and my History of Christianity class is so interesting, now if only we didn't need to have quizzes and tests, that would be nice :)

Well, thanks for reading this super long blog post, I will try to keep them shorter. Thanks to all who prayed for my mom, the prayers are deeply appreciated :) Keep praying that her side effect (muscle pain) doesn't get bad.  Thank you guys! :)

And this is when it gets hard again

In my previous blog post I mentioned how terrified I was about my mom's cancer growing again and, well, it is.  Yeah, this feeling is pretty sucky.  I had mentioned in another post that my mom and I have this way of knowing if they are going to give us good news or bad news, if NP comes in, then it's good news, and if my mom's oncologist comes in then it could be good or bad.  Well, this theory was wrong because on thursday, the NP came into the office and told us that my mom's cancer markers were a bit higher.  This time, my mom and I didn't break down.  This time it was like we knew.  I guess you could say that we are somehow always prepared for things to not exactly going the way we want them to.  Of course I did cry a bit, but it's like sometimes after you've cried so much, you get so exhausted and realize that, whether you like the situation or not, everything happens for a reason.  It could also be that it hasn't really sunk in, but my mom will be starting chemotherapy again (3rd time) this coming wednesday, she will be having chemo once every three weeks unless the oncologist decides it should be changed.  I have been avoiding thinking about this coming wednesday because I won't be able to be there for my mom, I will drop her off and then go to school and then pick her up, the chemo will take about 4hrs, so tuesday will be when we prepare the "chemo bag" filled with stuff she may need during chemo. She also has a new pain medication, it's in tablet form this time, which makes us feel a bit safer.  Yeah, this whole situation sucks. I will stop writing about this because it's depressing.

Cool church at my university

So let's see, my acting class is probably my favorite class this semester.  I have to act like my partner for this coming assignment, and let's just say he's pretty much the entire opposite of me, so I'm excited.  I am also helping judge this Interp. tournament thing at my old high school, which I'm excited about as well.  Oh and we got two pieces in chorale, which makes me excited.

Well, until next time! Please keep praying for my mom and that this chemo won't have sucky side effects and that it will help my mom. Prayers mean the world to me.

Thank you.

terrified

I'm not gonna lie, I am extremely scared about my mom's appt with the oncologist tomorrow, since my last blog post my mom hasn't been feeling that much better. I am really scared.  I hate how this disease is making me so angry, like for most of the time I am a total normal person (for the most part) but whenever I see my mom in pain I get so angry words can't even describe. I probably sound like a nut job but the effect that this disease has had on my mom as well as myself has been insane. I mean, the fact that it's stage IV and will never go away (unless there's a cure, which I sure wish there was already).

I am taking anatomy and physiology this semester and I feel it's going to help me understand a bit more about this whole jaldskfjas;ei rj disease, so far it's interesting.  As far as my other classes, they seem nice (especially my acting class), I will write more about it in another blog post because right now I'm extremely worried about my mom.  

I welcome any prayers for my mom, any, any at all will help, thank you.

It's gotta be a sign

So I love fortune cookies, I collect fortunes and have been doing so for a while now (trust me this is relevant). Okay so today my mom, my aunt and I went to Panda Express and when opening our own fortune cookies this is what we saw:

My mom's fortune

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 And my fortune  ---->

Isn't that amazing? My mom's fortune seriously like made my week, heck, month even! I believe very strongly in signs and I feel like this was one.  I have stressing very much lately about my mom and her health, but this just lifted my spirits tremendously.  Mine was pretty nice as well because of the whole college/career/future stress but yeah, it made me feel better.  My aunt's fortune read: "Lend a hand to one less fortunate than yourself", which is totally ironic because she has been helping us SOOOOO much. I am definitely putting these in the "collection" that I have.  I just love awesome fortunes!

                                                                                                           Oh also the other day, well, actually yesterday, I saw this leaf on the ground and I picked it up and took it all the way to my classroom where I was going to have my last final, or (final final, haha) and I took a picture of it so I could show people :) Well, thanks for reading!

First semester=almost done.....WHAT?

So today was really nice! I had my very first Chorale (choir) concert! It was really really nice.  It was crazy though because it was a lot of people's last concert and it was my first concert, very symbolic. This week are finals, boo...but I have like 3 media-related project finals, two of them are already done! I made my first video this past weekend along with my first webpage this past week.  I have been very busy lately with all these 2nd semester things.  Aaah!
On the other hand, my mom is doing pretty good.  She started driving and I am not so stressed when it comes to the car situation.  Except that the other day there was this accident, my mom and I couldn't see it, all we saw were the fire trucks and police cars and it just brought back horrible memories, but we are okay now.
I am actually really excited for next semester, I cannot believe it's just around the corner.  Oh and plus, Christmas is less than 20 days away!!!! Yepeee! I love the holidays and this amazing weather!


Oh here is something that I saw the other day at my school.  It totally reminded me of Grey's Anatomy :] Haha. Dr. Yang=Sandra Oh



Thanks for reading!

My love

I love my Yankees :]

I absolutely love this weather! I just got this new NEW YORK YANKEES scarf! I love it!  It's weird because today was the last "regular" day in like 5 out of my 6 classes! My freshman year in college is almost halfway over! Isn't that crazy? Today was really nice because Chorale (choir) was fun! I have been figuring out these media projects more and more (which is totally making me feel smart haha)

My mom's right arm has been hurting her lately, well actually since yesterday, I don't know part of me is worried, but I keep praying that she'll be okay.  I wanted to start writing back in this blog because I noticed that I only wrote 6 posts in November which bugs me because the other months I had like 8, I know that's weird, anyway, I'll try to write more.

Parenthood wasn't on last night :[ but....Grey's Anatomy is on tomorrow!!! :]

P.S. I will be having my first official choir concert on Sunday!!!!

Thanks for reading this totally random blog!